Lori and Dennis in Haiti

I have tried 3 times to write this. Every time it comes out sounding mad, and that is not what I want. I guess on some levels that’s what I still feel, but I have no right to feel that way.

For those of you who don’t yet know, Lori and I have left NWHCM and have decided to not go back on a full time basis. The last four months have been very difficult for us, lots of things that have frustrated us and anger issues for me. I apologize once again for my lack of writing to this blog, but I couldn’t see myself using the blog as a place to vent those feelings. Couldn’t find anything good to say, so I said nothing.

What has transpired over the last four months I will not be specific about. That is what makes me sound angry, like I am blaming others or the situation. The truth of the matter is I allowed my circumstances to shift God from the center of my focus. I fear that that failure may have tragic and eternal repercussions. If God’s purpose for calling us to Haiti was to return the presence of the Holy Spirit to Saint Louis du Nord, I failed Him. Many people who have visited the campus over the past few months have shared with me their belief that they do not feel the presence of the Holy Spirit at the NWHCM compound. Some are there for the first time, some have been there several times. I personally have not felt His presence the whole time we have been there on a fulltime basis. It is my hope that God’s purpose for us being there was to grow us for future work, and that others are or will be called to restore NWHCM to the soldier it once was for His army.

What I can to do about this now is for Lori and I to step back and regroup. Our relationship, which has always been strong, was the first and most effective tool the enemy had to use against us. We will be returning to the work force, and spending our time reconnecting with God and each other. There is much we can learn from the last 4 months, and I personally am still convinced that God has a place for us in the mission field. My prayer for us is that we learn and grow in our faith through this season of our lives. I would ask those who have been praying for us in Haiti to continue to pray for us as we move forward and grow in our walk with Christ.

My further prayer is that we are not the only ones to learn from our time at NWHCM. Please keep them in your prayers as they are struggling through a grave battle, and they are losing. I fear that they don’t even see it, but the evidence is there if they look for it. Again, I will not share details, but I will tell you that I am not the only one to see it.

Thank you for all who have prayed for us and supported us during this time, and again, please continue to pray for us as we move forward.